the end
So yesterday was a mistake, a really big one. I’ve now lost her and I don’t know how to feel. I know there is nothing I can do to make her see the other side, to make her realize that this isn’t how it is supposed to be. She is stuck firmly in the ground, both feet cemented in and she isn’t going anywhere. Maybe it is a good thing? maybe she was just that person you meet in life who impacts you in some profound way then you lose them. Maybe that is why we were brought together and have gone through this. I know that in a week this won’t matter, and maybe she will come around and see that and realize that she made a mistake by not seeing the whole picture and just having the ability to move on and forgive. But for now, I just have to live with this and live with her being this way. I have tried really hard in the past, and I have given her so much.. but it is constantly never good enough for her. I think I am just finally realizing that you know what.. I can’t beat myself over this. I can’t keep living this double life. There are secrets that people keep for the entirety lives; this will be one of them.
